didnt sound like a last goodbye

im sure its not

'Fai'

these days there are too many 'fai' people.. i do not know what are they dubbed in english but in cantonese its 'fai'.. the type of people when you ask them a dead serious question they will answer like it was just to entertain me or make the time pass by my making me say.. 'serious la wei'.. it is seriously on its own category of annoyance.. its another thing to be funny but this is not.. 

Fuck man

shitz!..kena robbed man..damn it..my phone..it was 3 am in my regular McD spot studying..then suddenly 5-6 malay motherfuckas came storming in with parang at that time..i already know im fucked..so sad case man..in fucking McD..

Tired

Tiring day..lol..

just back from yam cha and dripping in sweat.. haha.. 

realizing that i wont have much of these kinda times together.. haha.. im enjoying it now while i still can.. =)

friday!!.. PC fair.. an excuse to go out!!.. lol.. come come..

Feeling

LOL..this post might look scary, abnormal or out of the context..but i am having a feeling..a feeling that life is short and i might die anytime..lol..

its a celebration of life in a different point of view.. =)

Panda Panda

Yawn Yawn =O=

Nice nap.. ZZZZzzzz

Sad Sad Panda..=(

*cough cough*

lol..im sure to ask you out!..dont worry..lol..how about you drop the protocol and ask me out?..lol

5.07am

Just could not sleep..

Having a bad cough and a deep pain in my chest.. just lieing down on my bed.. finally it was 5am.. i have classs at 8.. and i am just here.. watching some movies.. watched seven pounds again.. the bucket list and also blood diamonds.. for those who seen these shows.. you know what is the feeling i got now..

hmm.. cuddling in my soft blanket hugging my pillow.. creating my own comfort and cozy area.. just to see the new day come.. there goes a week..

Moody days

Haihz..

these few days have been very moody and sucky.. physically sick just because my specs are not aligned properly causing a headache.. mentally exhausted.. hmm saw my ex today.. and it was the most akward moment by far.. i swear.. i walked out of my room and there she was.. i was in shock, and it shows.. i came out in a hurry to wash my cup and i saw her.. immediately, my body froze for an few seconds just standing there.. we were staring each other straight in the eyes but yet no words were uttered.. then i just snapped out of it and just walked to where i was going like some sit the reset button..

akward moment..

the person that i was hoping to see never shows up.. the person that i never hoped to meet just shows up in front of my door..

Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Camera pictures..lol

My mum at Kota Kinabalu.. i was not there.. =(

My mum and some girl.. lol..

Seriously.. some girl.. i tak kenal her.. =.=

maybe will soon.. =)

Jaycee Chan and some local artist..

A view from the top

took it from KL Tower Restaurant.. 

=)

你对我来说连个人也不是 (by Jin)

你对我来说已经死了，在最伤的时候 (by Yun)

你用最残酷的方法把伤害我的心, 你已经不存在了 (by Yuet Leng)

Mr Soo Soon Seng

Owh man.. this is truly the pinnacle of my 2 years of study in TARC.. not only it is the most crucial semester.. but interestingly i got a psychotic lecturer called Mr Soo.. We call him.. SSS.. because he is really SSS.. Sex, Stories, Sex.. Thats all he ever talks about.. i cannot believe he was teaching me this crucial semester.. My ATEL3314 Technology and Circuits.. Damn.. me spends most of the lecture hours blow-ing water.. 

He is really a blow water king.. =.=

At his best.. replying a question.. with 'Nah!!!!'..

Im doomed!!!!

Malaysian Politics

Hmm i have been going through youtube and malaysiakini.. all i have been seeing is the end to the power of justice, the end to the so called freedom of speech and the end to Malaysian unity..

aku tengok sakit hati betul..

the parlimen looks like its filled with a bunch of small kids.. screaming and shouting.. questions un-answered and issues that has been intentionally let slide by.. Gobind Singh has been silenced in parliment just because he asked a simple answerable question.. that i am sure every Malaysian would like to know the real story and what this -'hoohaa' is about.. how can you silence a MP that is bringing out a question for the people and by the people?.. where is the freedom of speech.. if you control the issues brought forward in the parlimen, what is the use of the parlimen?.. we can not bring out issues just because it involves a certain someone?.. we the people want justice, want to be treated fairly and not like blind and stupid fools.. we have eyes.. we have ears to see what you have done.. everyone is abusing power.. mana perginya 'keluhuran perlembagaan' and 'kedaulatan undang-undang'..

i honestly and confidently feel that Malaysia would only go down from here.. look at the issues that are brought up.. from murder cases involving politicians.. re-election.. unrest in Perak.. and those fanatics..

i believe in 2012 there will be a big change.. and Malaysia would then be in havoc.. the so called 'isu sensitif' what is so sentive.. i do not tink that an educated Malaysia would mind these issues being brought up as long as it is the truth and also for the better of our future and Malaysia.. what is this 'isu sensitif' claim protecting?..

haihz.. i really have no confidence at all in out government.. no confidence in the ministers.. why chat we have a brilliant smart and well respected man in the family and also in the public's eyes?.. i think Malaysia should be more open minded and is willing to change.. and realise that what is happening now is not going to end good..

shit man.. i do not want my home to be like this.. the government is sending out talents and also liberal and educated people away unconsiously.. who wants to stay in this country if this shit is going on?.. being led by people that is elected based on what?.. how i hope that Malaysia would be able to be like the US.. a woman and a black man running for the precidency.. in Malaysia, i think after 3 generation of my family then only they will start to realise..

haihz.. good bye Malaysia.. ministers are so protected just because they are ministers.. unquestionable power?.. people being detained for speaking its mind and pointing out the inevitable and the obvious?.. detention without trail?.. we are not dogs and slaves.. Malaysia is going to a down spiral.. im seriously fucking fed up.. im leaving Malaysia..