Feeling

LOL..this post might look scary, abnormal or out of the context..but i am having a feeling..a feeling that life is short and i might die anytime..lol..

its a celebration of life in a different point of view.. =)

Panda Panda

Yawn Yawn =O=

Nice nap.. ZZZZzzzz

Sad Sad Panda..=(

*cough cough*

lol..im sure to ask you out!..dont worry..lol..how about you drop the protocol and ask me out?..lol

5.07am

Just could not sleep..

Having a bad cough and a deep pain in my chest.. just lieing down on my bed.. finally it was 5am.. i have classs at 8.. and i am just here.. watching some movies.. watched seven pounds again.. the bucket list and also blood diamonds.. for those who seen these shows.. you know what is the feeling i got now..

hmm.. cuddling in my soft blanket hugging my pillow.. creating my own comfort and cozy area.. just to see the new day come.. there goes a week..

Moody days

Haihz..

these few days have been very moody and sucky.. physically sick just because my specs are not aligned properly causing a headache.. mentally exhausted.. hmm saw my ex today.. and it was the most akward moment by far.. i swear.. i walked out of my room and there she was.. i was in shock, and it shows.. i came out in a hurry to wash my cup and i saw her.. immediately, my body froze for an few seconds just standing there.. we were staring each other straight in the eyes but yet no words were uttered.. then i just snapped out of it and just walked to where i was going like some sit the reset button..

akward moment..

the person that i was hoping to see never shows up.. the person that i never hoped to meet just shows up in front of my door..

Things girls don't realize....

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

Camera pictures..lol

My mum at Kota Kinabalu.. i was not there.. =(

My mum and some girl.. lol..

Seriously.. some girl.. i tak kenal her.. =.=

maybe will soon.. =)

Jaycee Chan and some local artist..

A view from the top

took it from KL Tower Restaurant.. 

=)

你对我来说连个人也不是 (by Jin)

你对我来说已经死了，在最伤的时候 (by Yun)

你用最残酷的方法把伤害我的心, 你已经不存在了 (by Yuet Leng)

Mr Soo Soon Seng

Owh man.. this is truly the pinnacle of my 2 years of study in TARC.. not only it is the most crucial semester.. but interestingly i got a psychotic lecturer called Mr Soo.. We call him.. SSS.. because he is really SSS.. Sex, Stories, Sex.. Thats all he ever talks about.. i cannot believe he was teaching me this crucial semester.. My ATEL3314 Technology and Circuits.. Damn.. me spends most of the lecture hours blow-ing water.. 

He is really a blow water king.. =.=

At his best.. replying a question.. with 'Nah!!!!'..

Im doomed!!!!

Malaysian Politics

Hmm i have been going through youtube and malaysiakini.. all i have been seeing is the end to the power of justice, the end to the so called freedom of speech and the end to Malaysian unity..

aku tengok sakit hati betul..

the parlimen looks like its filled with a bunch of small kids.. screaming and shouting.. questions un-answered and issues that has been intentionally let slide by.. Gobind Singh has been silenced in parliment just because he asked a simple answerable question.. that i am sure every Malaysian would like to know the real story and what this -'hoohaa' is about.. how can you silence a MP that is bringing out a question for the people and by the people?.. where is the freedom of speech.. if you control the issues brought forward in the parlimen, what is the use of the parlimen?.. we can not bring out issues just because it involves a certain someone?.. we the people want justice, want to be treated fairly and not like blind and stupid fools.. we have eyes.. we have ears to see what you have done.. everyone is abusing power.. mana perginya 'keluhuran perlembagaan' and 'kedaulatan undang-undang'..

i honestly and confidently feel that Malaysia would only go down from here.. look at the issues that are brought up.. from murder cases involving politicians.. re-election.. unrest in Perak.. and those fanatics..

i believe in 2012 there will be a big change.. and Malaysia would then be in havoc.. the so called 'isu sensitif' what is so sentive.. i do not tink that an educated Malaysia would mind these issues being brought up as long as it is the truth and also for the better of our future and Malaysia.. what is this 'isu sensitif' claim protecting?..

haihz.. i really have no confidence at all in out government.. no confidence in the ministers.. why chat we have a brilliant smart and well respected man in the family and also in the public's eyes?.. i think Malaysia should be more open minded and is willing to change.. and realise that what is happening now is not going to end good..

shit man.. i do not want my home to be like this.. the government is sending out talents and also liberal and educated people away unconsiously.. who wants to stay in this country if this shit is going on?.. being led by people that is elected based on what?.. how i hope that Malaysia would be able to be like the US.. a woman and a black man running for the precidency.. in Malaysia, i think after 3 generation of my family then only they will start to realise..

haihz.. good bye Malaysia.. ministers are so protected just because they are ministers.. unquestionable power?.. people being detained for speaking its mind and pointing out the inevitable and the obvious?.. detention without trail?.. we are not dogs and slaves.. Malaysia is going to a down spiral.. im seriously fucking fed up.. im leaving Malaysia..

Boredom

Feeling bored and demotivated.. shit.. final exam is near but i do not feel the intensity.. im doomed..

'I wish you could step back from that ledge my friend'

SERIOUSLY

i mean seriously seriously.. im quite disturbed by the fact that girls do not accept reality.. they get all emotional and its fine getting emotional.. there is another level to it.. they will start to merajuk depan your face as if it is suppose to change my statement or make water turn into wine?.. come on.. get a grip of yourselves girls.. how you suppose to stand up to your staunch 'if a guy can do it so can a girl' thing?.. a guy can accept that he is fat, ugly, stupid, lazy, smelly or whatever comment that is thrown at him as long as it is a fact.. a girl would bloody boycott you.. fuck.. its better then telling a bloody lie.. girls please.. if you want to succeed, drop all this drama and grow up.. gather yourself up and stay calm and think rationally will ya?.. how you expect me to take you seriously or even give you a spec of respect where you yourself is just a big joke with clothes and make up?.. if you reader think that i am wrong to say this please comment and screw me up.. if you want attention, go to a hospital.. 

you are the one who ask me.. 'what do you think about me?'.. and to make sure you know what you are asking me i asked you back.. 'are you asking me what i think about you honestly and want me to tell you the truth?'.. yes she said.. so i said the truth.. i dont go around shooting people that does not want to hear it.. ended up.. she went all crazy and can imagine her screaming and ended with the note.. 'better you dont find me'.. 

never have i once said i do not want to be friends with you..

i am a friend of you in the first place knowing that you are what you are and i accept it..

it does not mean that you are not my friend.. do you abandon your friend if he is blind?.. or he is a smoker?.. no man.. we do not do that.. we are who we are..

i can even accept that girls are what they are now.. just do not deny it..

Memory Lane

Its been a long time that i actually decided to have a long walk for the fun of it.. just walking to my mum's office from the LRT.. passing through seri petaling, pasar malam, shops, cars, houses and people.. just a serious walk down memory lane on a blissful evening.. 

brings back memories of my childhood.. taking the time to look at people.. what they do everyday.. just to sit back and stop thinking bout what is bothering me and just go through a deep thought and concentrate on other peoples lives and dreams.. 

have not have enough time to actually relax myself and live the life i want to.. today was seriously a breath of fresh air.. carrying my beg.. shorts and slippers.. listening to my favorite songs.. looking at cars pass by.. 

its a day for me to stroll down memory lane..

More http://www.quizbox.com/personality/

How do you react to compliments?

If you try to change the subject when you are being complimented or you simply ignore it, this means that you don't like to pretend and you cherish authenticity. You feel that saying nice things to someone is merely an attempt to please the listener. You don't believe there is truth in compliments, and think that the complimenter must want something in return. You have good self-esteem and aren't afraid of criticizing, or being criticized.

How well do you get along with others?

You can make friends with anyone and are always interested in what people have to say, but you can also spend time alone quite happily and without getting bored. You don't overreact to things around you, and people consider you to be a bit of a cool cucumber.

Your Handwriting

If you write some strokes thickly but others are thin, it's likely that you're a very unpredictable person. Sometimes you'll get very serious about something, but there's always the possibility that you'll suddenly lose interest. It can take you a long time to complete a task--if it gets done at all before something else grabs your attention.

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.

Emotion Test

Your emotional controlled rate: 40%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

When will you get married?

You want to get married as soon as possible. You may get married at the age of 20 or right after you have finished your education.

Psychological Test

• You have a complicated personality.
• How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: top.
• You try to please everyone, the size of this personality as seen by others is small.
• Glass means fragile personality.
• You are also down-to-earth.
• You are an opportunist.
• Your husband or wife is the one you need when you are in trouble.

OMG this quiz is seriously very interesting

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Knowledge VS Result

HMMPH!!..

Knowledge sure win la!..

HMMPH!!..

Post-Result

Suicidal

Week 1

Lolx.. people start asking me where am i going after my Diploma.. i dont really have much of an option to begin with.. or maybe i have to many options.. but i feel my options are a gamble and some are just clouded by personal goals and also family.. past few months i have been very stubborn and decisive in maing my decisions.. at the day comes nearer.. i start to realise something more in life.. more than just mere education.. more than just money.. i learn to look at the big picture.. look at life as a whole.. not break it down individually.. hmm well where will i end up in the future sometimes is just up to fate and God to decide.. lol..


When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree, there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see, there will be an answer.
let it be.
Let it be, let it be

4 years?..
3 years?..
2 years?..

its not important.. what matters is that i am happy in those years.. i finally realised it..

Pre-Results

i think im screwed..

so help me God

Physical Distraction

its been a long time since i went on9.. wondering hows the world like.. does it still stink when i step out of my room?.. is my facebook still miserable.. do my friends still rememebr me?..

depending on my alram to wake me up in the morning..
i want to wake up as i like..
showering to avoid people telling you are smelly..
i want to shower whenever i want..

when will be the day i can do those?..
hmm..

humans are bound to these physical distractions.. making us go through life in a routine.. i hope when i leave this place.. i can live life as i want to.. in the near future maybe?..

life is really short.. no time for nonsense..

=)

Disappeared

Many things have started to disappear lately..for better or for worst..well..1st week in sem6 started off with a blast..a blast of laughter..lolx..woke up..went to the toilet and guessed what happened..my fon slide out from my pocket..it landed in the toilet..hey..the bright side is..its not wet..the bad thing is..the reason it is not wet is cuz it landed on shit..!!FUCK!!..damn it..

one of my friend suddenly told me that we should end our friendship..and she did..i am stunned..there was seriously no reason for it..she just says that it would be better if i was alone..so that i can grow..so i let her cool off..i was in shock..lol..

O.O