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Friday, February 27, 2009

心.跳

When this album came out.. i quickly downloaded it like there was no tomorrow.. cause i like his music.. i listen to it trying to understand what he is saying.. and the melody.. i felt noting and bored.. that was last year when it came out.. today.. i listen to it.. it taps into my heart.. it gives me goosebumps and a feeling that tingles all over my body.. hmm..




想跟我吵架 我沒那么無聊
不懂得道歉 我沒那么聰明
好想要回到我們的原點
你又在哭泣 我給不了安慰
我又在搖頭 有那么點后悔
愛情的發展已難以回頭 卻無法往前走
但身不由己出現在胸口
兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚
你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好
想跟我吵架 我沒那么無聊
不懂得道歉 我沒那么聰明
好想要回到我們的原點
但身不由己出現在胸口
兩顆心能塞幾個問號
愛讓我們流多少眼淚
你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

你的眼神充滿美麗 帶走我的心跳
你的溫柔如此靠近 帶走我的心跳
逆轉時光到一開始 能不能給一秒
等著哪一天你也想起
那懸在記憶中的美好

Thursday, February 26, 2009

LoL!!!!!!!!! chris rock

drugs

love



abortion



war on terror


wealth and rich


janet jackson



micheal jackson



strippers & rappers



about black slaves

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

2.47 am

Hell broke loose..

the devil came knocking..
its been a month..
a peaceful month for my soul..
rebuilding and feeling that i can start anew..
out of no where you came with the wind..
without warning..
maybe you are just passing by..
but with that passing..
you have caused unimaginable destruction and damage..
you crushed hopes..
you humiliated love and everything its stands for..
leaving people devastated..
you do you do it?..

Monday, February 23, 2009

Reality

:+:Jing:+: says:
T_T
:+:Jing:+: says:
woii u last sem liao wor
:+:Jing:+: says:
after that u do wat
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
dono
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
fuck u kua
:+:Jing:+: says:
=.=ll
:+:Jing:+: says:
fuck u
:+:Jing:+: says:
wer u wan study?!?!?
:+:Jing:+: says:
i so alone ler after u leave T_T
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
haihz
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
lidat wan la..
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
i dunu yet wer i wan study
:+:Jing:+: says:
waaaaaaa
:+:Jing:+: says:
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Boo!..GG..jin..Adrian says:(ME)
too bad la..u have to find abnoter BF liow
:+:Jing:+: says:
AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:+:Jing:+: just sent you a nudge.

Friday, February 20, 2009

AllAmericanRejects-Gives you hell =)

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place


And your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you even know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Yeah, Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and sing along, oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
And when you sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

Goodbye

I want to hold you

remember us lieing down in the early morning
waking up and the only thing that is on my mind is you beside me
your head leaned on my shoulder
my heart felt like i was in heaven
the more my love for you the better it is..

walked under the rain holding hand..
knowing the world is looking at us..
but yet it was as if the world is right next to me..

but i never thought today we say good bye..
left with out remorse..
still remembers the smell of her hair..
the way she looks at me..
the words she spoke seems to familiar to me..
the smile that would brighten the world..
the face you put on when you see me..

alot of stuff in my mind that i wan to say to you..
i want to say everything to you..
i dont know if i will see you again..
i dont know if i can forgive myself..
for letting you leave..
i really miss you..

i never told you i wanna hold you..

=P


Wednesday, February 18, 2009

15 things about me!

Tagged by Ms Siew Lee.. Thx to her.. i get to self promote.. cause that is what i think this tagging thing is about.. hehe.. well.. its easy.. 


Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things / habits / little known facts about yourself.
People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things / habits / little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tag and list their names.
No tags back!


1. i am a nose digger when i was small and people who knows me well will realize that.. i will dig my nose and stick it in my books.. and only books.. god knows why.. i think it is because i spend most of my time studying and alone.. so books are my closest piece of paper.. lolx.. people who borrow my books can testify.. lol (habit)

2. i eat alot of vegetable and toufu and eggs.. i do not like meat or chicken.. i will eat chicken and meat under specific circumstances.. i want the flesh to be cooked well.. no blood.. no veins.. no nerves.. no tendons.. soft.. and of course boneless.. i like it to be pure flesh.. i never eat animal organs.. (fact)

3. i like to read but only on specific matters such as mysteries regarding human life, philosophy, religion, myths, ancient history and new discoveries and theories.. (fact)

4. i am a really big cry baby to those who know me well.. almost can shed a tear for anything sentimental or emotional.. (fact)

5. i used to see 'things'.. (weird)

6. i am not afraid to die.. and rather prepared for it.. the only thing that concerns me is the people i left behind and how they would feel.. (fact)

7. i will not hesitate to speak my mind out.. if i do not go straight forward on you or did not say things that hurt you.. i am already controlling myself and shows that i am not myself when i am around you.. (fact)

8. i tend to have a 'all or nothing principle' regarding to some things.. if i cant have all i do not want to have the 2nd prize.. it sometimes feels like an insult to my wishes and people pity me.. (fact)

9. i am very introverted and do not really like to go out parties or as a group.. i rather like to be alone with a person because i feel that it is the best way for us to know each other better.. (fact)

10. hmm.. i kinda have a bad impression towards girls in general.. lol.. just cant trust them.. not all la.. lolx.. care about my girl friends alot when i have them around me.. (wierd)

11. i can sleep on command.. lol.. anytime anyday.. (wierd)

12. i do not eat to live.. i live to eat.. lolx.. i can eat all the time not because i am hungry.. its because i like to and feel like eating.. (fact)

13. i will open the fridge door every time i pass it.. has been like this since i could walk.. the gush of cold air is just tempting or the sound of my name being called by my little friends inside it.. (wierd)

14. i do not like a wet toilet/bathroom.. if it is wet.. i must take a shower.. or wash my legs.. (wierd)

15. i like to use dettol or protex soap.. (wierd)

The 10 nominees to be tagged are!

CarrMen
WingHoong
Summer
MeiChin
YuetLeng
SukYeng
Malcolm
Yun
PuiMun
Eunice

21 12 12

well i continued my personal research of doomsday.. lol.. stopped for months.. since now im just too free, i continued back.. read man articles and involved in forums.. haha.. well here is a few key points that i discovered.. trust me.. it is not easy and gone through alot-alot of websites and videos..


Well.. from what i can gather.. all these theories basically started from the mayan calendar.. the mayan civilization is the last know civilization and the people has mysteriously died out of disappeared for no reason.. heres a slight information how bloody accurate it is: it is said that the calendar is able to tell time in multiple dimensions accurately even for centuries ahead. It has successfully every solar system activity that has occurred in our time. But this calendar mysteriously ends at a specific date. which is 12th of december 2012. According to the calendar, during this time, the solar system will cross the milky way (zodiac).. marking the end of the pisces age or the start of the aquarius.. in between the pisces and the aquarius start zodiac.. This can be said to be in the Mayan Calendar the 12 o'clock position.. where it is the new age.. it happens every 26,000 years if im not mistaken.. this has been called the end of the age by many religion.. Hinduism, Christianity, Islam.. When this occurs, our solar system will line up with the rift in the galaxy which is believed to be the corridor that lead to a super massive black hole at the center of the galaxy.. it will cause the planets to warm.. it will break the matters of water and solid apart.. We can conclude that it has been gradually occurring for the past 18 years.. our north pole has been melting and the south pole has been getting colder..

Heres a slight info on their civilization. it is said through their  artworks drawing and artifacts that they were visited by someone who they call 'The Shinning ones'. they are highly complex being that thought them language, plant, husbandry, architecture, stars, cosmology, date-ing, and how the solar system moves through the universe.. They knew ahead of anyone else centuries ahead.. What they said are only now to be found out through by Nasa and other physicians.. THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY WE CAN MEASURE AND GATHER INFORMATION ON THE GALAXY LIKE THEY DID WITH THEIR TECHNOLOGY DURING THEIR TIME.. even now.. scientist and physicians are just starting to discover what the Mayans did centuries before.. 

The new particle collider that has been made recently in Swiss.. Is said to cause mini black holes.. The bizarre thing is the coming of the super collider and mini black holes is predicted by ancient civilizations and has been warning the modern society not to toy with it.. the tried to warm us not to do it.. for those people who dont know about WTF is this.. it is a machine that has been built where by two atoms.. at charged and fired at each other.. what it does is if it is aimed and hit point on,  it annihilates one another and the sub particles can be observed.. it is said to be possible to form in a mini black hole.. Remember the Big Bang.. this machine can make a mini big bang.. 

Pole shifts.. if the core is what it presumed to be. which is a rotating mass that generates electro magnetic field.. it is possible and it is actually slowly occurring now.. the north pole becoming south and the south goes north.. research has been gathered in the lava flow and their patterns.. samples has been collected.. the magnetic wave of the lava is hardened and can be observed through the pattern on the hardened lava.. it is said that recently the lava patterns on the north and south pole is switching on and off.. when this happens, a super storm will be produced.. for example.. heard that when you drain a tub in australia, it turn clockwise where in american it goes anti clock?.. north and south have different effect on the weather.. noticed that hurricanes and tornadoes are getting stronger?.. earthquakes getting more common at wierd places?.. waves are more aggressive.. coldest and longest winter ever?.. when pole shift happens, electronic communications will collapse..

Egyptians and pyramids.. heard of pyramid of Giza?.. wondered why do you hear this name so often instead of other pyramids in Egypt?.. It is said that the pyramids of Giza were built to precisely match the constellation Orion's Belt.. the belt stars of orion.. researchers believe that the Egyptians are pointing at the Orion because it marks the half way point of the 26000 years circle the Sun makes between galactic alignments.. this proves they say the ancient Egyptian also recognizes that movement that is about to come.. the seem to know the movement of the earth and the solar system way ahead of us.. 

Nostradamus.. ok to start off.. nostradamus didn't predict or foresee that the world would end in 2012.. it has been said that the world would end in 3797 called the final conflagration.. nostradamus is a prophet.. he has many prophecies.. recently The Lost Book of Nostradamus was discovered in Rome in the year 2007.. from what i gathered.. i do not think he predicted that the world would end in 2012.. it is just the scholar's own interpretation on that date and it is just self-fulfilling.. The accuracy of his predictions serves to underscore the fact that he knew the benchmarks that would be achieved as humanity travels on its path of evolution..  He was showing people that tough choices must be made if we, in fact, ever hope to prevent our own self-destruction.. He was alerting humanity to the ideas that our choices are leading to such things as environmental, social and political collapse if we do not change our way of thinking.. His warnings were meant to divert us from catastrophe rather than suggesting that such catastrophe is inevitable.. The goal a person telling you not to go down a certain road because the bridge has collapsed is not to foretell of your death; it is meant to prevent your death..The prophecies of Nostradamus are another voice crying out in the wilderness of human history urging us to change our ways and enter a period of great enlightenment.. I think that the modern scholars interpret his prophecies around a vision of what they want to see.. scholars use these pictures from the lost book and interpret them using images and symbols depicted in the bible and ancient symbology..

you know what.. there is just too many to write about.. google these few things and patch it up yourselves..

Mayan Calander..
Babylonia..
Atlantis..
Egyptian..
Pyramids..
Nostradamus..
Pole Shifts..
Hollow Earth..
Annanuki..
2012..
Alchemy..
Tree of Life..
The Lost Book..
Conjuction of planets..
Ouroborus..
Zero Point..
I-Ching..
Merlin..
2001 KX76..
Nibiru..
Planet X..

My personal conclusion that i can tell you going through all this is: if it is certain that there will be this crossing of the milky way.. then something big will happen and devastate the human race like a wipe-out.. but it also can mean a start of a new age that does not necessary mean the destruction of the human kind.. the mayan calendar starts from the previous age.. and suppose to end as scheduled.. so it might mean that there could be a change.. if nostradamus was right the world would come to an end in the year 3797.. 

but im certain about one thing.. if it really happens.. there is nothing we can do.. its just fate.. eh people.. im not gila ok.. lolx.. i still live my life like normal.. hehe~

now carrmen.. is this long enough?.. lolx.. 

i really like philosophy, ancient history, myths.. because i feel that those people that we study and heard about are really what i like to call the 'prime human race'.. i feel people in this century are useless.. if you compare what we done and knew from them.. where do you think we stand?.. i feel we are actually living a slow death caused by our own hands.. we are too used to comfort of technology.. the world cant forever be turning endlessly.. the sun wont be able to shine forever.. you know that.. 

13 year old dad?

Im like WTF.. i thought this is a mysterious pregnancy case.. lolx.. but after further reading from Monday's The Star i found out.. Fuck man.. the girl is only 14 year old.. the boy was only 12.. can you imagine what were you doing when you were 12?.. lolx.. this dude had sex.. the girl claimed to have been sleeping around and the dad to the child is still not certain yet.. Hooray to the world.. talking about multiplication!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Bored

well,  its been a long time since i wrote anything here.. holidays have been very very boring.. i actually didnt do anything for the last whole week.. my routine is seriously just eat sleep and PC.. Been watching House Season 1 2 3 4 over again.. Still makes me laugh and excited all the time.. trying to find new albums to download and movies.. haha.. but download speed is just miserable.. im just bloody bored.. lol.. got nothing to write about.. haha.. at home growing my facial hair.. lol.. its kinda bushy now.. lol..

Saturday, February 14, 2009

All the best to couples or threesome or foursome or whatever guys are into!!..

Lol.. 


today's the day that girls have been waiting for.. whereby most guys know that they are obliged to do something nice to their gurlgurl.. 

lolx.. guys know they are in a deep one if they act like they don't know or they its just any other saturday.. 

girls they have some kinda natural hormone producing gland that produces what i like to call the 'happy-cute-love-romance-pretty-hormone' that guys obviously lack.. 

but hey.. give us some credit man.. we do try to please you.. i'm not saying that when i say obliged to please you gals.. i'm not putting it in a way where by we are forced to.. some guys maybe yeah.. but the lots really intend to please you and make you smile.. maybe going all out into making you tear in happiness.. or maybe pop the question of your life.. who knows.. 

i start to relate the amount of babies born to occasions.. i noticed most of my friends are born in the end of the month.. if you do your math right.. maybe you were 'created' in january or early february.. christmas.. new year's.. and of course today!.. hehe.. make sense?.. im born in May.. so no guessing there.. hehe.. 

girls.. have faith in  your guy.. if you do not.. why are with him in the first place.. he loves you no matter what he did today.. wether he wrote a sweet and romantic letter?.. wether he wrapped up a nice choclate.. flowers?.. holiday?.. or a sweet dinner?.. or even just spend a romantic time at home.. its all well girls and boys.. enjoy the day to come together.. 

tolerate each other for it is vital.. any problems or mistake should be brought up calmly and on the table.. discuss it as soon as possible and not let it collect in a big mess.. its never good to have a third person intervene.. and always remember.. that you guys love each other and don't give up so easily ok!?.. 

those single girls and guys.. don't fret.. enjoy your life being single.. ok~! later you get married or have a gf you will miss it.. trust me.. no more kau kau chan o.. commitment is a big thing and you gradually come to you ok.. cheers pepz'.. 

Ass Wipe

@K3nJi@        says:
fucker....
@K3nJi@        says:
who is tat??
Didnt do anything says:
cibai
Didnt do anything says:
dun tell u
@K3nJi@        says:
din go go fuck ur gf meh??
@K3nJi@        says:
valentine o..
Didnt do anything says:
-.l.. =.= ..l.- NAH

Thursday, February 12, 2009

True True True

' he has seen enough of women to find them at best, a distraction ' Malaikum (Malcolm)

LoLx

I lost a follower liow.. haha.. now my blog is clean and purified.. 

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

rain rain rain!

Come Rain Come.. COME!!!.. everyday rain at night and in the evening.. or early morning!!.. yess.. 

HAZE

i have a feeling the haze is coming into KL.. These two days has been kinda haze-y.. lol.. Australian forest is too big.. Develop it.. lol.. better than leaving it to burn.. lolx.. 

Monday, February 9, 2009

the power of free time

Boycott Love..lol says: 
hehee
Boycott Love..lol says:
u do wad now
Boycott Love..lol says:
wan go johor?..
:+:Jing:+: says:
seeing movie
:+:Jing:+: says:
go johor for wat?
Boycott Love..lol says:
dunu
Boycott Love..lol says:
for fun
Boycott Love..lol says:
c the house there
:+:Jing:+: says:
oh
:+:Jing:+: says:
walk to there?
Boycott Love..lol says:
can oso
:+:Jing:+: says:
ic
:+:Jing:+: says:
bag travel la
Boycott Love..lol says:
yah yah
:+:Jing:+: says:
/gg
Boycott Love..lol says:
like expedition
:+:Jing:+: says:
lol

food experiments

today was the 1st day of my food experiment ordeal.. my mum knows now that i am at home she can experiment on food.. and there will be me to eat it up if it fails.. -.-

Greedy-ness of humans

she tells me forget the past.. ok fine i lupakan.. then she tells me the ending is not important, enjoy the journey.. if im at the end.. and i think bout the journey.. i will think about the past isn't it.. isn't that against your first statement.. then she says.. then think bout the good journey and memories.. then i said..


how about we cure cancer.. we use kimo but there is no side effects..
how about we invest.. and there is no risk..
how about we eat uncontrollably.. and do not get ill or fat..
how about we kill.. and don't get punished.. 

life isn't as what you wanted my dear..

remorseful Sunday

today i went to visit my grandmother she in her mid 70's in the old folks home.. i my mind i was doubtful what reaction i will get there.. will my grandma understand why i haven't seen her for so long.. cause i was having my classes.. my mother send her there is not cause she don't love her.. its because my grandmother needs people to take care of her all the time.. my mum is working.. but my mum visits her every week.. just that i didn't.. so i'm feeling kinda fucked up.. 


when i reached.. my grand mother was so happy.. her face just lit up.. at that moment in time i would just cry and said sorry.. but i held back.. it was a moment that i will not forget.. the happiness in an elderly persons eyes.. is the best thing that i have ever seen and felt.. its not hard to fulfill them at all.. they want to be around family.. because maybe it might always be the last time.. 

then i saw another lady.. my grand mothers friend.. you know what is the fucked up part of all for me.. she fucking remembers my name and my brothers name.. and i don't know who is she.. she is 84.. she can remember when is the last time i came clearly as hell.. 

i felt like a dog.. i hope some one would just call me a dog shit.. i am a dog shit.. i am useless..

the little things that they can do to break your heart.. then my grand mother gave me a biscuit and that i liked to eat for years.. that was the point that i cannot stand.. my tears just came out.. my mum maybe was kinda shocked but she too felt what i felt..

it is a different feeling that you get from visiting an orphanage.. i went an orphanage few years back and it was obviously fucked up for me.. the highlight of it was.. a kid came up and ask me.. 'why his dad is not here and took my phone and told me.. my dad has it too..' i just went out and wiped my tears off.. 

back to my grandma.. the aunty keep starting conversations with me.. i am all too happy to chat with her.. whatever she said is 100% respected and absorbed my be.. everything from eating and studies.. she then said.. now, no matter how rich i am.. its no use.. but i can tell you.. she's fucking rich.. then it really made me sit back and think and for that moment in time.. i felt relax.. i felt if i were to get shot the second i will be able to go in peace..

then my grandma started talking about her friends passing away.. that when i saw the peace and fearless-ness in them.. they do not fear death.. they are already ready for it.. fuck.. its us that is unable to let them go.. we are selfish.. 

i then took note of the other people in the home.. they are all very quiet.. sitting on chairs.. doing nothing.. seriously nothing.. not sleeping.. just sitting.. i really want to know what is on their mind.. they also move really slowly.. there is a sense of peace and acceptance that is so deep that we do not feel.. so i got home i tried.. sitting down like that.. i can't do it.. i just can't.. they are what i call the golden age.. 

compare to them i personally feel like a shit.. they are the age that i respect.. the golden age.. they when thru alot of stuff.. japanese occupation.. hardship.. war.. we now what do we know about hardship?.. we only complain about petty things.. all we do best is what?.. how to work a computer?.. 

when i want to leave.. i said a good bye and she told me to come again more often and so did the aunty.. in my heart i told myself.. if i don't come frequently enough she might not be here already.. and i hope if i don't, God will just come down give me a slap so hard.. it will make my ears bleed.. there are so lonely there.. they need company.. i feel like a dog shit.. damn it~!!!.. i'm an ass.. 

Sunday, February 8, 2009

A sincere advice to you..L

i don't know it you will reading this but i hope you do.. you might not get what i wrote here.. but it is a good one with all the best intentions.. i hope now you will take your time and look at life.. seriously take it slow.. don't rush love.. please.. because it is proven that it will never do.. and be clear.. i am not scolding you, not criticizing you, or even teasing you.. 


you said it yourself..

happiness is like a butterfly,
the more you chase it, 
the more it will elude you, 
but if you turn your attention to other things, 
it will come softly on your shoulder.

i hope you can practice what you preach.. all the best..

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Mix And Match ( Folie À Deux )

Grabbed from their lyrics.. Sum of what i felt these few days..


Disloyal Order Of Water Buffaloes
"So boycott love
Detox just to retox
I'd promise you anything for another shot at life
Imperfect boys with their perfect ploys
Nobody wants to hear you sing about tragedy"

I Don't Care
"I said
I don't care what you think
'Cuz as long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery
"

The (Shipped) Gold Standard
"I said
I don't care what you think
'Cuz as long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery
"


"You can blame your problems on the world for so long
Before it all becomes the same old song
As soon as we hit the hospital I know we're gonna leave this town
And keep new passports.
Get out now!
"

What A Catch, Donnie
"I've got troubled thoughts
And the self-esteem to match
What a catch, what a catch"

27
"If home is where the heart is then we're all just fucked
I cant remember I cant remember
And I want it so bad I shoot the sunshine into my veins
I can't remember the good ol' days
"

"Are all the good times dead and gone
They come and go and go and come and go"

"My mind is a safe and if I keep it in we all get rich
My body is an orphanage we take everyone in
Doing lines of dust in sweat off last night's stage
Just to feel like you"

w.a.m.s
"My head's in heaven, my soles are in hell
Let's meet in the purgatory of my hips and get well
Hurry, hurry
You put my head in such a flurry, flurry
Oh freckle, freckle
What makes you so special?
What makes you so special?
I'm gonna leave you
I'm gonna teach you
How we're all alone
How we're all alone"

Speechless-ness

Im so speechless when it comes to you.. i really don't know that to say to you.. i wish i could just not open my mouth.. but i cannot resist.. what am i to do?.. i gave you advice many times.. yet you ignored it as if i'm out to get you.. now again.. it has proven me right.. you should have listened to me..

defected mouse

used a defected mouse before that will auto double click or will make it difficult for you to drag?.. you should experience it one day.. it can really make you healthier.. nice blood flow.. chances are you will end up breaking it slamming on the table or pressing its buttons even harder before you get a new mouse..

ASK

some people ask to know..
some people ask to discover..
some ask to care..
some ask to lend an ear..
some ask to help..

and there is also some bit ask just for the intention to fuck my day up and mess with my head..

i know this girl.. i don't think you will be reading this.. if you do read.. yeah.. im bloody pissed at you.. so i can use you as an example.. or a specimen because i believe it is more suitable for you.. i dare not categorize you as a human because that is just to rash.. its so unfair to say you are a human just because you look like one..

you know very well what you say will sure to offend me.. but yet you still do even after i gave you a serious look telling you not to talk about it.. yet you still blabber on.. WTF are you intending to do with me?.. to avoid being self-centred as much as possible i already answered what you ask me fast and simple.. and added that what i said was serious.. don't you understand?.. i live my life and you live yours.. why the fuck do you have to bounce out of nowhere and screw it all up.. what do you want from me?.. seriously.. im beginning to think you are here just to mess with people.. there is a reason to why you are so fucked up and boycotted by people.. did you sit back and think?.. there must be a reason..

you wanna screw with me tell me.. don't do it sarcastically.. because it really is the worst way to channel your displeasure.. dont hide it behind what looks like an innocent question.. when you actually say it out, you facial expression, you tone, your face itself.. already pisses people off..

'eh you not say you go out with her wan meh?.. you still here wan?.. didn't go already a?..'

nose pointing up, eye rolled down at me, i just grinned and say 'no a din go..' hopping for her to back off.. she kept at it.. spamming 'why..' with the same position of the head this time with arched brows, sharp eyes gazing at me, chin up with no regrets.. 'you already know why.. don't ask already la..' you knew how hurt and sad i was..

'why.. oooo.. is it she don't want you already a?.. aiyo, you la.. lousy BF.. sure dont wan you adi laa..'

owh man.. that was the fuckkkkkkingggggggggg boiling point.. stood up.. shouted at her.. gave her a proper scolding.. she finally shut up and kept quiet for awhile and quickly backed at it.. but toned-down thank god..

i don't know why you have to do this.. i really don't know.. i have many guy frens.. guys are suppose to be tough and cold hearted.. but they manage to care and understand.. but you.. special la.. special.. 

is it because you are used to the environment where people pamper you and forgive you til' the point where you do not know how to pick your words around people..
or is it because you are a girl and think that i do not dare to give you a lesson?..

i have been quiet and tolerated with you.. and now you finally tested where that limit of tolerance is..

Final day of Exam

Well.. happy to say.. today (friday) exam was like a blessing and a gift from God to DMH2 students.. well, im bloody greatful.. so it ended on a positive note.. holidays are back.. time for me.. to.. 


1. Since CNY is coming to an end, there is still alot of leftover food.. so im 'forced' to eat it.. 'sacrafice' abit la hahaha..

2. Sleep alot on my nice bed.. Sleep alot better at home.. Home sweet home indeed.. 

3. Want to do alot of 'long kai' spend time with my friends.. go jalan-jalan..

4. Watch as much english series as possible.. lol.. want to catch back on House, Prison Break, Heroes, Supernatural..

5. Maybe get a job?..

6. Go on a holiday?..

Beats me.. but i can tell you.. i feel bloody good man.. waking up on your own will.. waking up to nothing.. doing what you want when you want.. sure, its fun for awile.. later i cant wait for classes to start again.. mesti enjoy now.. =)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Muzix

Here's a list of albums that i have been listening to lately..i recommend you listening to it too =) and many other singles..lol..


Kanye West - 808 And Heartbreak
Fall Out Boys - Folie A Deux
The Killers -Day And Age
Coldplay - Viva La Vida
Coldplay/Jayz - Viva La Hova
Josh Groban - A collection
Linkin Park - Songs From The Underground & Road To Revolution
Jason Mraz - 3 Album Collection
Leona Lewis - Spirit
VA - Club Nation Vol 1 & 2
M.I.A - Kala
Switchfoot - Oh! Gravity
OST Ip Man
OST Red Cliff
OST Underworld 3
OST Madagascar 2
Leo Ku - Im Still Yours
VA - CantonPop Love Songs Collection

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Don't blame me for looking

LoL..girls wear sexy is just for guys to see and thats about it..for me, when i see a sexy girl..i will just look like no one gives a shit..i mean, why not..tell me, why not..the girls look sexy and showing flesh, whats on their mind?.. 'today my target is to make many many guy look at me..and drool for me..' ..they willingly show..they also already janga the chances of jow kong and longkang showing..but they don't care..so why should i resist (im not talking about peeping)..takkan you want me to close my eyes if a sexy girl passes?..lol..i mean..i don't feel on the wrong to look at them..don't you think?..

I mean, girls put on make up..spend loads on facial, hair, clothes..just to look pretty..I think if guys don't look at them, it would be hell of an insult or even piss them off..think about the times the spend on make up..hair..OMG..the initiative they took to look pretty or sexy or wadever they might call it its just amazing..if they put those will power into something more productive like studies?..work?..hell..girls will rule the world for all i know..

Can you imagine you have two friends..one just pakai selamba (A) and another pakai macam going for her wedding (B)..and you pay more attention to (A).. i think that girl (B) would be pissed as hell trying to find the reason to why the dude choose (A) over (B).. lol.. if both girls like you or something.. but if you turn the tables.. if you pay more attention to girl (B).. im pretty confident girl (A) would no be happy but will be able to reason and come to the conclusion that it is because of her looks that she gets so much attention and guys are guys stupid and easily fooled.. see the difference?..

Sexy is just a shell..i personally would just be happy enough looking at them..won't bother taking the initiative wanting to know them..

its harder to find a good girl then a prettty girl..lol

Hey but ofcourse..its just my opinion and i am sure i am not saying all of those girls..but im quite confident im talking and pointing out the majority..

physically attractive & bad character VS physically not so attractive & good character
who do you think will prevail?..

Holy-day~!

tomorrow is the last day of my 5th semester exams thank god its over and holidays are coming.. time for a good good rest..nothing better than to just wake up eat and sleep and eat..the day passses without you knowing cause i hadn't done anything special or significant..lol..enjoying all i can..memang relax la man..

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

I did all i can..

My friends always ask me question which i think until now is the most stupid question when exams are near..i rather them ask me something more productive..

they ask me.. 'eh TX study adi a..?'..and also my personal favourite.. 'prepare already?..' and 'this one got come out ah?'..

and i answer them..'ofcourse i study..'

prepare already?..'im as prepared as hell but it doesnt mean that i can answer all in the exam..i did all i can do on my behalf..i could not care any more than that..being prepared doesnt mean i can score good..if some screwed up question comes out how?..or careless mistakes..'

got come out or not?..'who the hell you think i am man..even if i say yes it doesnt mean it will come out..if i say no..it still might come out..im not god..even the lecturer can pull your leg'

they are presistant they cant stop asking me even if i give them the same answer over over again..its like they think if they ask me enough i would actually change my answer..its like shouting to a dead body..'NO!! NO!! NO!!'..i dont think its gonna pop up and say hi..

i came prepare as if there was noting i havent seen..but yet there is still many obstacles..i did all i can but the paper is meant to kill us..i can just say..'theres nothing i can do..'

im not talking about todays maths..todays math i was just being hypnotized by the numbers and ended up doing something that i end up have to confident with..haih..what can i do?..there was not enough time to regret..

Monday, February 2, 2009

invisible quota system in my home

there is an invisible quota system in my house.. there have been reported cases of controlled goods circulating in my house.. the consumption of food for CNY for me has been limited and there for exist a quota system.. about roughly 30% of the food is allowed to be consumed by my family.. and from 30% from it.. i roughly ate 50%.. i loving food so much.. am pissed at this.. people coming to my house and touch and eat my food.. NOOOO~~

uncle and aunty Chen

Lol.. today was the most meaningful day of this chinese new year.. finally visited an important person in my life of 19 years.. they were my babysitters for a few years.. and a close friend to my family.. lol.. good thing i went there.. cause i needed advice.. its nice hearing advice from some that i respect much.. they are old.. 60 going 70.. so what ever they say im sure to absorb it.. hell, they are 3 times older then me.. i trust me.. there are very wise indeed.. to have me listen closely and bow down.. and hold the record of my fattest ang pau every year.. i seriously don't care bout the ang pau.. i just want to see how they are.. but i know where is my first paycheck going to.. uncle Chen smoking like a chimney is amazingly healthy.. i personally called it 'God extended life'.. maybe too good of a person.. i bet he is.. having three successful sons and daughters.. i told him about my problems and he gave me an advice which i heard many times but ignored from others, but when he said it.. it was different.. i actually cared and respected.. he said.. 'kin yat poe, hang yat poe..' means literally 'see one step, walk one step..'. Hell, if you told me this i wouldn't give a shit about it.. But when he said it it actually means something.. thats the difference it makes.. i listen to him.. 


He also said.. don't get married and committed so fast depan his wife and daughters.. he told me to not choose so fast and get trap by girls.. cause later when i have the qualification it won't be a problem for me to find one.. he told me to try around.. He actually told me not to be committed so fast.. try around.. lol.. imagine the reaction of his wife and daughters.. 

Its nice to drop by once in awhile to know that they still care so much even all these years.. just to know there is still love and care between us and them.. i practically owe my childhood to them as i spent most of my childhood there.. i'm glad to have known them and will never forget them and if given the opportunity i will repay everything they did to me.. and my family.. to know that a bond not by blood can be so strong.. 

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Behind every man there is a successful woman?

How true is this?..

Expectations

i learn to not expect anything in return a few days ago surprisingly..

i was being stupid the whole time..
i realize i just do what i have to do and feel self content about it..
its also something like syok sendiri..
so i learnt..

Hey, i can't always be happy can I..


Big Decision

I have a big decision ahead of me..

tonight i realize its do or die..
one wrong step and i will fall and have to live with the decision..
i know its not the biggest in my life..
but i'm sure it is the biggest so far..
i need help but i know no one can help me..
i need comfort but i know it will just not do..
what can i do?..
just sit back?..
but i ain't relaxing..
let time do the job?..
i never believe in the saying 'let time heal or prove..'
how can doing nothing and let time pass change something?..
i believe in Newton..
so i say 'time don't do anything.. it is what we do with that time that changes everything..'